Today, and for the third time, I thank god I have a job.
Actually today when I first woke up, I wondered what it would have been going to college like normal people, have classes -daily- in the morning and going to the university like most students do. I was beating myself up about it until I took the rest of the day off and went back home and seriously was thankful I had a full time job.
Before continuing my very small humble story, I just want to mention what I came up with of conclusions today as well. I remember when I first graduated from highschool, for some reason I imagined my future would be working AND studying at the same time. Studying/working in which major/field? I had no clue, I just figured out part of my future, which was basically studying and working at the same time, ignoring the bigger part of it. But that’s not my point here, I cant remember my point here I lost track of thoughts.
(10 minutes later).
Buddha once said, All that we are is a result of what we have thought.
Yes indeed, he was very much right. I look back at the things I used to think of myself doing, wishing or imagining the future Abeer would be doing, they are all happening today. In other words, one should be careful of what one wishes for.
One of my guides in life is the famous saying “expect the unexpected”, and so you can see me pretty pessimistic at situations, because I’m expecting the worst for better results. But lately, after my latest discovery of my very interesting theories, I am very cautious of what to expect and what to think of the future. It will end up coming true. (As if I needed more shit to think of, right?).
As for being thankful regarding my job, it is indeed a very good thing in my life, actually its probably one of the best things that happened to me so far. You see, there’s a certain family member that I would like to avoid for the rest of my life –if possible-. And being busy with my work life, things manage to go smoothly, and i don't have to see that person everyday.
Ever felt like you’d never want to look at a certain someone right in the eyes because you’ve lost respect for them? I lost my respect for him long time ago. The day he decided to devote himself for another family of his and leaving us behind.
The things I’ve been through, the loads of shit I had to take when I was little, all of them were lessons that made me who I am today. And im damn proud of myself.
Reminder to self; Abeer, you will be a woman of history one day.
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